Wednesday, January 26, 2011

New blog, new location

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Be blessed!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Windows

Sometimes I find it truly amazing the way God speaks to me through the simple and seemingly mundane things. I washed my car today. Exciting stuff, I know, but on my way home my windshield was so clean it was like it wasn't there. All of the bugs were gone for the 12 miles home, and it was like I was finally seeing the things that I was really supposed to be seeing.

I know it's kinda weird, but on my way home I was wondering why I didn't clean my windshield more often. It's like when there are so many dead bugs and just dirt on it, you have to look through all of the gunk on there and then you still just get a distorted view of what you're really supposed to be looking at.

Most of the time I find myself focusing on what I don't have. I try and look through other peoples' lives or how someone says I should be living my life and through that I tend to focus on what I don't have and everything I'm not and everything that I've never achieved. You know how sometimes the sun can catch just wrong on a spot on your window and all of the sudden it's right in your eyes, and you really can't see through it? That's how I've felt recently.

My little brother got married last weekend. It was a beautiful ceremony. I love my little brother and my new sister-in-law, but it's on those days that my being alone hurts.

I'm showing a ton of houses, but I haven't been able to get an agreed-upon price to even have a sale pending. It will get there, I know, but it just seems like it's taking forever.

Quite a few of my friends were gone this weekend or had other plans, and I had nowhere to go. Sure, I needed to be home and relax, but it's nice to have an option sometimes.

I've been housesitting quite a bit lately. It's some much-needed extra cash, and it gets me out of my parents' house for a few days, but the problem with that is it makes me wish I could go back to my own place rather than being grateful that I have a place to go.

Little spots on my windshield that distort my vision and make me have to squint and turn my head just to try to get a good look where I'm going and see what I'm really supposed to be seeing.

But as I was driving home tonight it hit me. I need to keep on top of keeping my "windshield" clean...literally and figuratively. Literally, it just makes it so much nicer to drive and just be able to see where I'm going! Figuratively, I need to keep my mind and heart clean from what this world is telling me and what I know to be the Truth. And it just can't be every now and then. I've got to dig in and think on what is true and pure and lovely, the things that God has for me...not that things that I don't have. Probably most of the things that I was talking about up above could possibly make me completely miserable.

Anyway, that's about it. I just had these thoughts as I was driving home tonight and thought I would share!

Father, help me to focus on what is true and good and not what makes me feel lacking. Amen.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Love Wins


Was having fun experimenting the other night. This one was my favorite!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I am invincible...as long as I'm alive

Or so the song by John Mayer goes.



Wow. It's tax season. I'm working from 8-4 at the title company, and then 4-7 at the tax office. My days are long and exhausting, but at the end of tax season, I'll have my 2007 taxes paid off and have that debt long behind me. I'm pretty excited about that. I've also got a gentleman that told me he'd buy my car as soon as he gets his tax refund. I'm pretty excited about that! If everything works out, that means that within the course of the next month or so, I'll have my car paid off, my taxes paid off, and a couple of other little bills that are just annoying me paid off and will be able to make some serious progress with the rest of my bills. I've calculated that if everything goes according to plan, I'll have nothing but a note at the bank and my student loan within a period of five or six months...and this is very exciting. I've also got two offers to house-sit. I was supposed to do it this coming week, but I think plans have changed, but I couldn't think of a better opportunity...go to work and get paid from 8-4 and the from 4-7 and then go to the home and get paid to sleep! These are the kind of jobs I love! I also have another person wanting me to house-sit for them for three weeks in the summer. Again, I'm pretty excited about that.



There are some other changes going on in my life. I'm not really up for blogging about them right now. They're positive changes. I still haven't lost any weight since Christmas, and have actually gained 3 pounds, but I'm stepping it up this week. My goal is to post a couple pictures up here within the next month to let you see my progress. I'm pretty excited and very happy with my life at this time, however, I'm not content. Does that make any sense? I keep moving forward, which as believers, I think is our job, to keep moving forward and onward towards the goal ahead of an eternal life in Heaven. Unfortunately, sometimes I get so busy with life down here, that I forget that the Kingdom of Heaven is all around me and there's work to be done here.



I wonder if any of this is making sense or am I just rambling? I'm kinda tired :-D

Hey, please pray for my friends Brian and Tina. They're going through a really tough time right now and could use any and all prayers! Love you all!

Monday, January 12, 2009

no pics this time!

Sorry no pictures this time! I decided on an actual post. I'm not really sure what to post about, but I thought I'd just sit down and start typing and see what comes up. First of all, in the music department, I definitely recommend Hillsong's new CD "This is Our God." One of their previous ones, "Mighty to Save," was one of my favorites, but this one is quickly becoming my new favorite! You definitely need to check it out!

My work is still going really well, and I still love it. I didn't lose any weight during the Holidays, but on the upside, I didn't gain any either. I'm still at 27 pounds lost. My goal is to lose 50 more by my birthday, which is June 12, so that's entirely doable.

On another note, I'm selling my car. So if you know of anyone who wants a 2003 Honda Element in excellent condition, let me know. I've figured the finances, and if I sell the car, I'll be able to move out in a couple months after wrapping up a few things here with still no rent. Also, there's some apartments a block from work, so I can move in there and walk to work every day and save on gas. I'm really looking forward to it, so I'd really love any assistance you could give in helping the matter along!

I think that's about it for now. I'll post some pictures of me up here soon to show off my hot new bod...lol Okay. Maybe just me 30 pounds smaller! Hope you all have a wonderful and blessed day!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Our Christmas tree





























I thought I'd show you all our Christmas tree. It's crooked and misshapen but I still kind of like it...especially in my pictures!

Sunday, December 07, 2008

nothing doing

So there's really nothing and everything going on right now. Nothing spectacular to blog about and really too busy to blog about nothing, but here goes. I noticed that it had been a while for me to update, but not as long as some of you all...ahem Herschel ahem. Christmas is quickly approaching and I'm about done with shopping and looking forward to spending time with my family and playing games and all that fantastic stuff. A lot of things have been changing around here in my life. New nephew, new job, which is kind of old news now, but oh well. Just good changes. Hope you all are doing the same! If I don't update by Christmas, I wish you a blessed one!